CHAPTER 9 The feelings that were flooding through her startled her. The energy that had built up as she had clung to him on the back of the motorcycle with her arms wrapped around him, broke through with a rush and she wrapped her arms around him again, and drew him closer, eliciting even more hunger in his kiss, and a low guttural moan from his throat. “God, Sandy, you’re killing me!” he moaned, as his lips traced a trail across her cheek to her earlobe. “Kiss me!” she whispered, and the wantonness in her plea surprised even herself. Jonathan had kissed her, and she had thought she’d loved him, but never had he ignited a response such as this from her. She clung to Ty with both her arms and her fingers, and pressed her body against him, afraid that if he let her go she would crumble helplessly to the floor. He responded to her plea with a low groan, then obliged her, and claimed her lips again with such passion that she lost any remaining sense of self. There was nothing outside this kiss. Nothing could quell the surging realization that she loved him, and with it, her need for his kiss never to end, no matter how dangerous the outcome might be. “Oh, Sandy!” he gasped, when his lips finally let her go and he stood pressing her against him breathlessly, his face buried in her hair. “Now do you see? I do find you attractive — very attractive. If you were any other woman, we wouldn’t be still standing here discussing it right now, we’d be upstairs making love.” He felt her stiffen, just slightly, at his words, then her hold on him tightened. He slid a hand down her back and pressed her close, as if to accentuate his words, and she felt the hardness of his need against her body. She cleared her head just enough to ask him to clarify his statement. “What do you mean if I were any other woman?” she asked him. He brushed his hand through her hair and softly kissed the top of her head. “You’re a woman of principles, Sandy, I know that, and I don’t want to compromise those principles.” In other words, she thought, I’m a good girl. Well, good girls finish last, don’t they? the voice inside her head chided her, surprising herself once again. She had insisted on propriety during her engagement with Jonathan, and look where that had got her! She had thought she had been in love then, but it had been easy to preach ‘wait until we’re married’ — there had been no passion, no electricity between them that could even come close to what she felt in Ty’s presence. And Jonathan? He had calmly agreed with her that waiting would be best. Thinking back on it now she almost laughed. No wonder he found it so easy to wait! If he’d felt for her even half of what she now felt as she rested in Ty’s arms, surly he would have put up at least a bit of a fuss. But no, he hadn’t wanted her — he had wanted Maggie. He had already had Maggie, as a matter of fact. And as Ty softly placed another kiss on her hair she realized that Jonathan had actually done her a huge favour. “Kiss me again, Ty,” she whispered, tipping her face up toward his. He groaned, and pressed his hand against the back of her head, making his chin stay pressed firmly on her forehead. “Sandy, I swear, if I kiss you one more time right now, we will be upstairs making love.” Sandy took a deep breath and let it out slowly. She had come to a decision, and her heart pounded in her chest as she realized she never would have made this move with Jonathan. But then — she hadn’t loved Jonathan. She knew that now, as sure as she knew her legs would not hold her up if Ty released her. What she had felt for Jonathan could not have been love, for she did love Ty, and there was no comparison. Even though he didn’t love her back, he did find her attractive. Sure, it may be only a physical attraction but it was obviously more than Jonathan had ever felt for her and she had almost married him! “I know,” she whispered, as she pressed her hands against his back and tipped her head up more, maneuvering her lips towards his. He groaned, and kissed her, and if she had thought there had been any sexual tension there in his earlier kisses, he left no doubt in her mind that there was this time! Then he loosened his hold on her, and his hand found hers, and quickly he led her up the stairs and into his room. As he closed the door behind them his lips found hers again and his fingers began the task of pulling her shirt up so his hands could find the bare skin of her back. “Stop me now if you’re going to change your mind,” he said, as his hands rested at the sides of her breasts, poised to remove her shirt. “For if we go any further, I swear I won’t be able to stop later.” She smiled. Even in the throes of passion, he was still offering her a chance to back out, and this act of consideration towards her just made her love him even more. So he didn’t love her, she told herself, but he wanted her and she was willing to accept that with no expectations for the future. Being a ‘good girl’ wasn’t going to get her anywhere this time. She had always heard it said that when the time was right, a girl would know, and without a doubt, she knew. “Don’t stop,” she breathed, shaking her head gently, and the look of relief that washed over his face sent shivers through her body. Then her shirt was gone, and his lips were on her neck. His fingers slipped the straps of her bra off her shoulders and he kissed her there next, moving his lips even lower as his hands maneuvered to unclasp the offending garment, and then it too was gone. She was helpless in his arms as his kisses traveled over her breasts softly, gently, until at last he took the hardened bud of her nipple between his lips, and she whimpered softly, her fingers clutching him. With an urgency she didn’t know she could possess, she gripped at his shirt and tugged it from his jeans. As she struggled with it he let go of her, only long enough to pull the shirt over his head in one swift motion, and she pressed her hands over the sculpted muscles of his bare chest. His fingers found the button of her jeans and soon she was shivering under his touch as the palms of his hands slid down her hips and thighs as he slid the denim down her legs. When she stepped out of them, he lifted her and placed her on his bed, and his lips once again began the tantalizing journey from her mouth, down her neck, over her breasts and belly, until at last his fingers toyed with the elastic of her panties. She squirmed under his touch, and closed her eyes, letting the sensations wash through her without distraction. Then he stopped, and his hands and lips left her, and she felt the bed lift as he moved off of it. She opened her eyes with a soft whimper, afraid he would be gone. But instead, he was removing his own jeans, looking down at her with a look in his eyes she had never once seen in Jonathan’s eyes — a look of pure sexual hunger. He hesitated, and she wasn’t sure if he was just taking his time or if he was still doubting her decision, but when she lifted a hand towards him, beckoning him to return to her, he sprung into action and slipped out of his shorts. When she saw him, she gasped, and her mouth went dry, but then he was on the bed sliding the last remaining barrier between them along her legs and tossing them aside. Then he lowered himself over her. His lips met hers once again and she felt the length of his body pressed against her, skin against skin. He bathed her body with his kisses, caressing every inch of her with his fingers, and she arched upwards to meet his every touch. his lips toyed with her nipples and she moaned under her breath. Then he slid down her body and kissed the inner flesh of her thigh and her body moved for him without any communication from her mind. When his fingers brushed over her, and his lips followed, she cried out for him, and when his tongue explored her she was certain that she could stand no more. He was no stranger to giving pleasure to women, she was sure of that, as she laced her fingers in his hair and pressed him into her. At long last he lifted, and slid his body back up over hers, and kissed her once more. The taste on his lips excited her, and she wrapped her arms around him, drawing him closer. “Ty!” she breathed, sliding her open palms along his back and down to his hips, in a gesture of need. He recognized it, and lifted his hips, moving into position, then pressing toward her. He felt her tense, and his lips froze on hers as all movement ceased, but she pressed him urgently with her hands against his hips, willing him to continue. With a throaty groan he did just that, and she kissed him with renewed passion. When at last they lay breathless, entwined in each others arms a while later, he brushed the hair from her face and studied her profile. “I’m sorry, Sandy, I didn’t know.” “What?” she asked him. “That this was my first time? Don’t worry about it. I knew, and it didn’t stop me. Would it have stopped you if you had known?” She turned to look at him, the question still in her eyes, and he smiled. “The way I was feeling — the way you were acting — I doubt it,” he admitted, though he wasn’t sure what kind of character the admission made him in her mind. When he saw her smile he judged that it hadn’t cost him too many points on the popularity scale — if any at all. He kissed her forehead softly. “But I might have taken my time a little — been gentler with you.” “Well then I’m glad you didn’t know,” she said, with a sparkle in her eyes, as she slid her hand teasingly along his body. “You are a wicked woman!” he groaned, as he moved in to kiss her again. “Am I?” she asked, as her hand continued to explore him further, sliding down the muscular body, over his hips and between his legs. He groaned again. “Definitely!” and he rolled over to silence her with his lips. Sandy awoke the next morning with Ty’s arm draped casually over her as he slept. She studied his face for some time. His thick dark hair and tanned, rugged features would turn any woman’s head, she had already come to that conclusion long ago. That she happened to he the one who had turned his at the moment made her feel more feminine than she ever had. That it wasn’t going to last, however, was a fact she was not going to let herself lose sight of. She would never regret her decision, but she wasn’t going to fool herself into thinking she was anything more than a physical attraction to him. The time would come when he would move on, and when that happened, at least she would have memories. In the meantime, she had a job she had to get to, she reminded herself. But when she tried to move, his arm drew her closer and held her tight. She glanced at him, but he still looked like he was sleeping. Carefully she tried to lift his arm, but this time he rolled over and trapped her under both an arm and a leg. “Ty!” she protested in a quiet whisper, but he snuggled his face into her neck and still slept. “Ty — I have to go to work!” she said a little louder, gently pushing on his shoulder to wake him. “You should try sleeping with your boss, then you wouldn’t have to worry about being late for work,” he murmured into her neck as he began kissing her there. “Ty McKinley!” she exclaimed, giving him a playful swat. “Ouch!” he said, pretending to be hurt, finally giving up the pretense of sleep once and for all, raising himself up onto one elbow to look down at her. “You deserved that!” she said sternly, but there was playfulness in her eyes. “And you deserve this,” he said, as he effortlessly lifted himself over her, capturing her lips with his and resting his strong masculine length over her body. She was about to protest, but his lips silenced her, and soon she was lost in a passion as heated as that they had shared the night before. When he finally allowed her to roll out of his bed, she barely had time to shower and dress before leaving for work. There was no time for breakfast. An hour later, however, when she looked up from her desk to see who had come into the library, she found Ty walking toward her with a cup of coffee and a small brown paper bag. She was both surprised and thankful. “It was the least I could do, considering it was my fault you missed breakfast this morning,” he said, as she opened the bag and peeked inside, finding a bagel and cheese waiting for her. “McKinley!” she exclaimed softly, as he winked at her. She glanced around quickly to see if anyone was watching. Marie, a summer student who was working at the library, quickly turned her attention back to her task of re-shelving returned books, but not before Sandy caught the wide grin on the girl’s face. Sandy straightened her back and pretended to reprimand Ty, the look of laughter on his face made it impossible for her to keep a smile from creeping onto her own lips. “Shhh — this is a library!” she pretended to reprimand him. “Pardon me, Ma’am,” he said, in mock seriousness, casting a glance towards Marie. The girl had returned her attentions to them, and when he smiled and winked at her she giggled and quickly disappeared into one of the aisles. “I’d better get back to work myself,” he said. “My boss is a real tyrant.” “Oh get out of here, McKinley!” she said, laughing at him as she walked him to the door. He looked back at her, his face very serious. “See what I mean!” he said, then held up his hands in self defense. “OK, OK, I’m going,” he grinned, and his eyes dropped to her lips and she knew he was considering kissing her. But he remembered where he was, and cleared his throat, turning the conversation to business. “Actually, I wanted to ask you about the eaves troughs. They’re in pretty bad shape on the back porch and part of the main house as well. I was going to get what you needed for the front porch today and I thought while I was at it , I might as well re-do the whole house — if you think that’s OK?” Sandy wrinkled her nose. Usually she arrived home from work and found a job done. Seldom had he asked her permission, even though she had made a big deal of that fact over the roofing job. This must mean the cost was going to be considerable, she thought. “Will that be a big expense?” she asked. “Nope,” he said confidently. “I’m quite sure you can handle it.” She sighed, “Well then, if you think it’s best to replace it all then go ahead.” She had become quite used to letting him make those decisions around the house, letting him choose what needed to be done first. It had just become the natural thing to do and she seldom questioned his judgment at all. “Right then,” he nodded, looking quite pleased with himself. “See you tonight then,” and once again his eyes drifted lower, this time all the way down her body, and she blushed as she watched him finally turn and walk away. When she turned around she found both Marie and Joyce, her regular assistant, watching her with great interest. “What? He’s fixing my house!” Sandy retorted flatly. “He had to ask me something about the job he’s working on today.” “Right.” The two girls nodded, then shared speculative glances with each other. Sandy rolled her eyes and groaned. “Oh get back to work you two!” she said, trying to sound authoritative. But when she got back to her desk where the coffee and bagel awaited her, she couldn’t help but smile. That night it rained. In fact, it rained for four days straight. Sandy went up to one of the empty bedrooms the first night the rain started and stood looking up at the ceiling. Outside the rain pelted down heavily, sheeting the windows and rumbling on the roof. On the ceiling, the paint was flaking off and the plaster was chipping badly. There were dark water stains in several places — but everything was dry. “Look at that,” she exclaimed, as Ty came up behind her. “It is a mess, isn’t it. I’ll have to do something about that. I haven’t been in these rooms while I’ve been working outside, I had forgotten how bad the ceilings were.” She laughed. “It’s a sight for sore eyes!” she exclaimed, then turned to look at him over her shoulder, catching his confused look, she continued. “It’s dry!” He grinned at her. “That it is,” he agreed, and followed her gaze as she turned to look upward again. It never ceased to amaze him how such little things as this brought her such joy. He was used to seeing expressions like this on women’s faces when they had been given some extravagant gift, but she looked like this just because he had made some repair to her house. It didn’t matter how big or how small the job — from re-doing the roof to tapping a nail into a loose piece of tin on the back shed — the look was always the same. For the first time in his life it made him realize just how shallow those other women were. They had been impressed by his money but had never had any interest — except for possibly distaste — in his job, and suddenly he looked at his work through different eyes. No longer was this just something he did to get a paycheck. Heck, if the truth be known he was working for her for nothing even though she defiantly considered his room and board as his payment. Most of the supplies, that had been her side of the bargain, would eventually be coming out of his pocket despite the fact that she thought she was paying for them. There was more on his line of credit at Long’s than she knew, and he was hoping to keep it that way, giving her just enough bills to keep up the charade. Once his business with Cole was settled, he intended to pay off Long’s himself and not ask her for a penny of it. No, money was no longer the driving force behind his daily work. Thanks to Sandy, he had discovered a whole new reason to do a good job every day — pride in one’s workmanship. “Did I ever thank you for doing the roof?” Sandy’s words penetrated his thoughts and he smiled. “You might have to do it again,” he said, as he slipped his arms around her from behind and leaned her back against his chest. “I’m not absolutely certain if you thanked me properly.” She giggled, and turned to look over her shoulder. “No?” He shook his head, and pivoted her in his arms. “No,” he said, and she laced her fingers behind his neck, lifted her face to his and kissed him softly. “You mean something like this?” she asked, when their lips parted again. “Mmm,” he murmured. “Something like this,” he said, returning his lips to hers and kissing her much more deeply. “And I’m almost positive you didn’t. I would have remembered something like that,” he said when at last he let her up for air. “Hmmm,” she hummed thoughtfully. “That’s not very good of me. I must remember to remedy that fact.” He nodded. “Oh yes, I agree!” “When do you suppose I should do that?” she asked teasingly, tilting her head to one side. His arms drew her closer, and she could not mistake his desire for her in his eyes. “It has always been my experience that when you remember you have forgotten to do something, you should take care of it right away before you forget again.” He dropped a tantalizing kiss on her lips. “Mmm — wouldn’t want that to happen, would we?” she murmured, as she lifted her lips to his again and kissed him longer this time. “No, definitely not,” he agreed, at long last. “Most definitely not!”