CHAPTER 10 By the third day of rain, Ty had scraped away all the cracked plaster and paint from the two rooms that had sustained the most damage, and was working on the third. He was applying plaster, standing on a step ladder dressed in faded jeans coated with dust, with his T-shirt tucked into his waist and hanging like a rag at his side, when he heard female voices coming into the room behind him. “I still say you’ve got the best looking handyman in the county,” Serena was saying, with a giggle, as the two women stood watching him work. Sandy followed the movements of the muscles on his back as he moved his arms and silently agreed, but out loud she laughed. “Don’t let Bob hear you say that!” she teased. “A woman can still look!” Serena asserted. “I may be married but I’m not dead, and I’m not blind.” Then she laughed as she looked around the room. It was the smallest of the three empty bedrooms, situated at the back of the house away from the street. The ceiling sloped on one side and a dormer window was quaintly fitted into the slope. “This is such a lovely room,” Serena said. “This will make a perfect nursery — when you two are ready for it.” She smiled, and winked at Sandy, who proceeded to sputter and choke on her breath. She shot a quick glance in Ty’s direction but he only hesitated slightly as he passed the plaster trowel. Without turning around, he commented in a calm drawl “You just worry about your own nursery, Serena. How’s Bob coming along with that by the way?” The ploy was successful, and Sandy was amazed at his talent for turning the conversation around so easily. Serena was lost in her chatter about the nursery, the baby, and Bob. Ty finished a couple more passes of plaster, then climbed off the ladder and put down his tools. “If you don’t mind, ladies, I’m just going to go wash up a bit,” he said, giving Serena a bright smile. Then, as he passed Sandy on the way out of the room, he leaned in and whispered in her ear. “Thank me later.” Sandy blushed, but Serena was too busy talking to notice. Some time later, Sandy sat across the kitchen table from Serena and smiled while the other girl talked. If there was anything she had learned since meeting Serena, it was that she liked to talk. Not that she gossiped, for she didn’t, but she seemed to be in a constant state of chatter. “I’m so glad you two agreed to come over tonight,” she was saying now. “Bob enjoys Ty’s company so much, it has been a long time since he has had someone to talk to that he has so much in common with. Oh, people around town are friendly enough, you and I both know that, but there’s just something about Ty that Bob really likes.” Bob isn’t the only one, Sandy thought to herself, with a sigh. It had been almost a month since Ty McKinley had shown up at her door in the pouring rain and in that short time her life had been turned completely upside down. “Ty has been doing wonders on your house too!” Serena was saying, excitedly. “It looks fabulous! You are so lucky to have him.” The house indeed looked fantastic. Having finished plastering the three upstairs bedrooms, he had painted one by the time the rain stopped. With the sunshine back, he had left the inside work and moved back outside where he had started scraping down the old paint on the clapboard siding and all the trim. He had worked for a week straight until all but the back of the house had received their required coats of off white paint. The wood trim around the windows and doors on the front of the house had also been painted and the broken gingerbread accents under the eaves had been repaired. From the street, the house looked like a million bucks! “He is rather amazing isn’t he?” Sandy commented, then winced at her choice of words and her dreamy tone. “I’ll bet he is,” the girl winked at her. But before Sandy had a chance to say anything more, Serena was chattering again. “Just like my Bob. He’s so sweet, he won’t let me carry anything heavy now. We went to the doctor the day Bob got back home, and he said I should be taking it easy, so Bob has been doing everything for me. He’s so worried about how I’ll manage the next few weeks while he’s on his long stretches on the road, but he wants to be home when the baby is due so he has arranged to switch some runs with another driver.” Serena was tossing the salad as she spoke, and her hands moved in time with her words. Bob was home for a few days and Sandy and Ty had finally accepted their invitation to dinner, and the couple was absolutely delighted to have them. With less than a month to go before the baby was due, Serena had a lot to talk about, and Sandy was thankful for that. It kept the conversation safely off the topic of her and Ty. It was always heart-wrenching when Serena referred to them as a couple when Sandy knew there was no future for them. Perhaps she hadn’t been wise to allow their relationship to progress to the next level, but she knew she would never regret it, and never forget him, even after he left. And he would leave. It seemed to be her lot in life, she thought, to fall in love with men who didn’t love her back, men who would walk out of her life and leave her standing there alone. The difference, of course, was that Jonathan had left her shattered. His leaving had been a complete shock to her, totally unexpected. Where Ty was concerned, she knew he would eventually walk out of her life the way he had walked in, and she told herself that knowing it made it easier for her to prepare for it. It would be hard, but at least she would be ready for it. The sound of Ty’s voice filtered in from the next room and Sandy sighed as she listened to him talk. She couldn’t hear what he was saying, but there was something oddly soothing about his voice as it washed over her. “It’s like music to the ears, isn’t it?” Serena’s statement penetrated her thoughts and brought her back to earth. “What?” she asked, apologetically. Serena grinned. “The voices of the men we love,” she said, pausing in her preparations to rest her hands on the top of her belly. “I know just how you feel. Sometimes when we’re in a room full of people I just sit and listen to him talk to the others. I could tell by the look on your face you were doing the same thing.” Sandy winced and blushed slightly. Had it been that obvious? “Oh, no Serena, really, I was just thinking of something else, my mind was a million miles away, I’m so sorry.” Serena chuckled. “I don’t doubt you were, but I’d say probably not quite a million miles, hmmm? Maybe just across town?” “Serena!” Sandy’s blush deepened. “Please, listen. You must know — it’s not like that,” Sandy said, deciding it was time to tell Serena the truth and ease the incredible tension that she felt whenever the girl talked about Ty. To her surprise, however, Serena wasn’t at all startled by her confession. She simply gave her a soft smile, and nodded, and leaned over to rest her hand on top of Sandy’s on the table. “Honey, I know what Bob has told me. He says Ty is just a handyman working at your house and getting room and board. He says there is nothing between the two of you and that I shouldn’t embarrass you by talking about your Ty the way I do.” “You already knew?” Sandy looked at her wide eyed and Serena’s grin widened. “Sure I knew, but I also know that you are in love.” “Oh, Serena, no!” Sandy objected, shaking her head. “Bob is absolutely right. There really is nothing between Ty and me.” “Sandy, Bob tends to believe what people tell him. Me, I may be a simple girl who doesn’t get out much, but I know love when I see it, and I see it on your face and in your eyes when you look at him or think about him.” Sandy wrinkled her brow in defeat. “Oh Serena, does it show that bad?” she asked, realizing that denying it any longer would be futile. Serena chuckled. “Honey, love like that is never bad.” Sandy groaned. “Well, I seem to make a habit of falling in love with men who don’t love me back,” she said with a frown, voicing her earlier thoughts. “Don’t be silly, girl!” Serena straightened her back. “I’ve seen the way he looks at you too. Of course he loves you back!” But Sandy shook her head. “No, you’re mistaken Serena,” she insisted. “Hogwash!” the girl retorted. “If that man doesn’t love you, then I’m not pregnant!” she patted her large belly and nodded purposefully. “Then I suggest you go on a diet, girl!” Sandy said, and the two of them burst out laughing. “You two sound like you’re having a good time in here,” Bob said, as he stepped into the kitchen. “How’s my lovely family doing?” He bent his head to kiss his wife on her welcoming lips, then he kissed her belly. Sandy decided that was what love looked like, and Serena was surely mistaken about Ty. What he felt for her was simply a physical attraction — what she saw in his face was only lust — and that would ware off eventually. In time, once he decided it was time for him to move on to someplace new, or go back to wherever it was he had come from, he would be gone from her life and she would pick up the pieces and move on. Bob carried a stack of plates out of the kitchen and Sandy smiled at her hostess. “You’re a lucky girl, Serena,” she said, a genuine smile on her face. “Your husband loves you very much.” “And I know it too,” Serena said, turning a huge grin toward her husband as he returned. “I get the impression I’m being talked about in here,” he said with a grin. “You better believe it,” his wife agreed as she held out her hand for him to help her up from the chair. “You boys better watch out when we girls get talking about our men.” But there was no more talking about men for the next few minutes at least. The food was ready and it was time to help get things to the table. When Ty walked into the room Sandy felt her pulse quicken and shot a shy glance towards Serena. The other girl just smiled and nodded ever so slightly, then turned cheerfully towards Ty and started a new conversation. It was ridiculous, Sandy insisted to herself, as she clung to Ty on the back of his bike on the ride home. She knew what to expect, she had never tried to fool herself where Ty’s feelings for her were concerned. She had jumped into deep water, but she had done it with her eyes open. Ty didn’t love her, despite what Serena might think, and she knew that. When the time came, when she had run out of things for him to fix, or when he needed to move on, he would go. It was a fact she reminded herself of daily. As she lay in bed beside him, listening to his breathing at night, or studying his profile in the early hours of dawn, she reminded herself of that. He would go, and she would miss him, but she would not let herself be shattered like she has been with Jonathan, because this time she knew all the facts in advance. He didn’t love her. There was immense chemistry between them, and an enormous physical attraction, but he did not share her love, only her bed. After the first few times when they had made love, she had been uncertain how things between them would proceed. He had told her he had had great difficulty keeping his hands off her, but once he had had her, she wondered if the novelty would have worn off? She knew she still wanted him — more than she ever did before, but was it presumptuous of her to think he felt the same way? She had seen the desire in his eyes when he had looked at her, when they had made love, and it had made her giddy to know that she had been the cause of that look. She had never seen desire in Jonathan’s eyes when he had looked at her. He had always looked appreciative, even attentive, but there had also been another clouded expression hidden underneath. Now she knew what that had been — regret, and hopelessness! She had come away from the church that day feeling that she was unattractive to men in general. The best way to avoid getting hurt again was to avoid men altogether. Who needed them anyway? That was a question that was shot clear out the window every time Ty walked in a room these days. She was surprised, what with her previous convictions against men, how easily she had let herself fall under his spell. On the first rainy night they had made their way from the bedroom where she had been admiring the dry ceiling, to her bedroom where they had made love once again. Then Carl had called him for some help with Daisy, and when she had gone to bed for the night, he had not been home yet. Until that point, they had made love on the spur of the moment. She was unsure what he would expect to happen when it came time to actually go to bed for the night. Not wanting to appear too over eager, she had chosen not to wait up for him, but she couldn’t sleep either. She had listened for the familiar sound of his bike, and when she had heard it, her heart had pounded as she had listened to his footsteps on the stairs -- and going to his own bed. Laying in bed in the dark, she had watched the patterns the trees made on her ceiling in the moonlight as they gently swayed in the breeze. She had reminded herself that there had just been a moment of sexual tension between them, and they had diffused it. She shouldn’t expect it to go any further. She had been thankful for the soft, playful breeze that had drifted through her window screen, for it cooled her flushed body — at least until she thought about how it had been Ty who had replaced that screen so she could enjoy the late evening breezes. Then the thought of him had increased her heat instead of easing it. When he had tapped softly at her bedroom door she had felt her heart jump into her throat and sat up instantly. She had barely been able to find her voice to invite him in. When she had watched him enter, seeing his bare chest glisten in the moonlight above his jeans, she had found herself holding her breath, afraid he only wanted to talk to her, just to tell her something and then leave. She needn’t have worried. He had made the distance between the door and her bed with ease, and had made no hesitation before dropping to sit on the edge of her bed and taking her in his arms. His kiss was passionate, even though she reminded herself it was driven by lust and not love, but she responded to it regardless. After that night they had simply fallen into the habit of going to bed together each night. There had been no spoken agreement, but the physical acceptance of each other was there. They moved into a comfort zone with each other that seemed acceptable to both of them, and though Sandy knew it would not last forever, she was happy to have whatever time she could get with him in her life. So why had she watched Serena and Bob together tonight and envied them their unquestioned love for each other? Why had she ached for the familiarity they shared in every aspect of their lives, born of the knowledge that they would grow old together? Why had she found herself with this deep penetrating longing to be like them — to be married? As the bike rounded the last corner onto her street and headed for home, she held on a little tighter. She was being silly, of course, and she knew it. She had tried the wedding thing before, and look where it had gotten her! It had not progressed into a marriage — not even a honeymoon — and knowing what she now knew, she was thankful it hadn’t! She thought of the passion that she would never have known if Jonathan had stuck around to marry her, and the infidelity that would have been there. Yes, sooner or later Jonathan’s affair with Maggie would have surfaced, and she would have been hurt just the same — or maybe even worse? Maybe she would have been pregnant with his child by then? She pictured herself looking like Serena did, waiting for the baby to come, her belly swollen with the life she carried. Her intent, as she had drifted into this thought, had been to remind herself how devastated she would have been to find out about Jonathan’s true feelings at a time like that. Instead, her mind spiraled in a completely different direction, and she found herself thinking about having Ty’s baby. Oh for goodness sake! She scolded herself. That just wasn’t ever going to happen. He wasn’t going to be in her life long enough for that, and besides, she might have thrown her convictions to the wind as far as having sex out of wedlock were concerned, but she drew the line at having a baby with a man who did not love her. Jonathan had insisted, in his good judgment, that they not start a family too soon after their wedding. Sandy had taken care of that by seeing the doctor and going on the pill, and after everything had fallen apart she had simply kept up with it — just in case — although she’d often wondered just in case what. Just in case Ty McKinley came along, she told herself, as the bike coasted into the driveway and she was forced to let go of him and climb off. Just in case she fell in love with a man who only lusted after her, she chided herself with a scowl. She pushed that thought to the back of her mind. I don’t care! she told herself. It’s better this way than the illusions of love that had been all her marriage to Jonathan would have been based on, wasn’t it? At least I know where I stand! Yes, she knew exactly where she stood. As the door of her house closed behind them, she stood almost instantly in the circle of Ty’s arms and she felt tingles run down her spine. “I thought we would never get out of there!” he moaned against her lips. “I thought you liked Bob and Serena?” she asked him. “I do like them, but all their touching each other and those little pecks on the cheek Bob kept giving her — I couldn’t wait to get you home so I could do this,” he said as his lips connected with hers. Her lips parted and his tongue swept the dampness of her mouth. His hands moved on her back, one hand cupping the curve of her rear end and pressing her tightly against him. She let out a muffled sound as she felt his hard desire pressed against her belly, and her own kiss filled with a drunken hunger. “Mmmmm,” she murmured against his cheek as his lips trailed across her face to the nape of her neck. “I know what you mean.” All evening he had wanted to do this — wanted to touch her, hold her, kiss her. Wanted to make love to her! It had been driving him absolutely mad! It wasn’t that he wanted to have sex, that he needed a woman — it was her. Being in the same room as her and not being able to touch her, seeing her across the table, smiling and laughing as she talked with Serena, and not being able to silence her with his kiss. His whole body had ached for her. He had never wanted any woman like he wanted her. He lifted her effortlessly into his arms and carried her up the stairs, still kissing her. Though they had taken to sleeping in her room at night, this time he carried her to his bed, and her heart pounded in her chest. Making love with him was always amazing, but there was something strangely masculine, so very powerful, about his room. Just the thought of being taken to his bed was erotic to her, and she found herself throwing all reserves to the wind. There was no easing into it either, within seconds their clothes were on the floor and she lay naked and waiting on his bed as he stood towering over her. Her chest rose and fell heavily as she breathed, and for a moment he simply stood there looking at her body. “You’re beautiful,” he said, under his breath, with a groan. Her eyes traveled down his own body and she thought much the same thing as he began to lowered himself over her. His lips tasted her, trailing kisses along her thigh, as his hands gently caressed her legs. As she squirmed under his touch and reached for him, lacing her fingers through his hair with an overwhelming urgency. He moved with a wild passion, until his tongue found her heat, and she arched toward him and called his name softly. Seconds later he was above her and she cried out to him as she wrapped her legs around him and drew him into the depths of her being, exactly where she wanted him. As he took her with his throbbing masculine need, she clung to him, and met him thrust for thrust. The future would have to wait. For now, there was nothing but this night.